i'm ashley lite
i am a wife. i am a mom of two little chicks. i am dedicated to my family and being present for them. these days, weeks and months just keep flying by and i can't stomach the thought of missing any more of their lives.
i worked in corporate america for ten years and missed out on 3.5 years of liv's life and 7 months of elle's life and that was more than eeeee-nough!!! being a working mom is hard AF. there is no sense of balance and my girls weren't getting the best version of me at the end of a long ass work day. i was always struggling just to get by. i kept asking myself if this was how i was supposed to be living my life. not fully living into my potential and purpose. not being present for my family. and sure as hell not living peacefully. Is this really allllll there is to life?? go to work and trade my precious time (read: my children’s lives) for money?? i just wasn’t about to believe it, for one frickin second!
when i heard about the second round of layoffs at my 9-5, i did some soul searching and decided it would be in my best interest to volunteer for a severance package to leave. it would be the push i needed to get on with my life. i always told myself i was far too creative to sit behind a mind-numbing desk and waste my life away. I was dying a slow, painful death with long days away from the girls and wasn’t doing anything that lit me up. it took major guts to make the decision to raise my hand and share my decision with my boss, because i didn't know what exactly that meant for our family. how will we make ends meet? no clue, but we’ll figure it out because everything always works out- right?! i knew that's what i needed or else i was still going to be sitting behind that desk, still disengaged with my life, in another ten years down the road!
so after volunteering for severance, i went out on short term disability for the whole month before layoffs, the decision making time. and it was killing me being so far removed, but in hindsight, i’m so thankful i wasn’t around that already toxic environment, gone rampant! Anyways, fast forward to notification day and when i got the phone call from my SVP. . . “ashley, as you know what today is, i’m sorry to inform you that we do not have a position at mcdonald’s for you anymore.” the sheer joy was 500% transparent in my voice, as i said thank you a million times and hung up the phone!!! i ran into the living room, fell to my knees in front of my husband and burst into tears, just praising my utter thanks to the universe. i’ve been given another shot. another chance at my life. another opportunity to live my legacy!!!! hell yah!!!
so now, having been a stay at home mom for the past ten months, i have done a lot of deep heart work. it took me a good 6 months to detox from the corporate culture bullshit, and i didn’t even drink the corporate kool aid!! lol. but what i’ve discovered is i had to lose myself in order to find myself!
and here i am. me. in my entirety.